Therapist let down

Been binge eating. Feel tired. I'm struggling with food, who to trust.. I had my first therapy session and she didn't turn up. Called me this morning and said there had been a misunderstanding. Bollocks. It was really clear that it would be this Wednesday, really clear. She's offered new appointments but I don't trust her now so she can fuck off.

Reading Penny Parks' book on child abuse has been a wonderful experience. Deeply painful at first but ultimately really liberating. I decided I was going to get professional help. Penny Parks has developed a technique called PICT and on her website I found a couple of therapists working in the Midlands. I got a response from one person who is operating a waiting list and with the other, she actually phoned me at home tonight and we had a chat about how things work and the cost. I liked her. I've got a form to fill in and if I'm suitable it will mean travelling to Leicester, hopefully on a Sunday. It'll be a long journey on the train, so I guess I'll make it through a few books, but I'm already excited about it. She had sent me an email which I didn't pick up as I had just got back in when she called and what I really want to do is reply and talk and talk and talk.